panic

Today I am starting babysitting for the two nephews Sam and Alex. I am very worried, firstly that they won't do what I say (I'm the fun aunty), and secondly because I have had an awful premonition that I will be responsible for their deaths or grievous injury or something.

Okay, so I don't think I'll quite kill them both off. But it is kind of nerve-racking. I've been desperately praying that nothing bad will happen on my first day. Luckily, I'll only be looking after them for about an hour and a half today, but I have to cook dinner as well so it might be rather a mental hour and a half. I think it will be actually quite fun when I spend the whole day looking after them; we can go out and do some fun stuff. But in a way, a small period of time like today will be harder. :S

I feel the need to look at calm, peaceful photos like the one above and breathe slowly and deeply. In. Out. In. Out. [The photo above, having mentioned it, is of Lake Ohau, near Twizel, in the Mackenzie Country. Eva and I stumbled across it and it was so exciting because we've got this beautiful painting of it at home and I'd never seen the real thing before.]